It’s been said that the wild is a very dangerous and strange place to be. It’s a place where the smart, strong and the brave ones survive.
I’ve been out from the most pampered area in the hospital for over a week now. Regrets? I would be a hypocrite if would say that I don’t miss Jalysis, cause I effin’ miss them oh so much. But for some reason, I choose not to dwell with the feeling. Where I am right now is where I should be. It might not be the best place in terms of people and how friendly they are, but a big part of me says I belong there. How can that be possible?
I remember how my psychology instructor taught us about the mind and its division. It is like an iceberg where the peak of it is your conscious mind and the rest buried under water is your subconscious mind. And I guess my love and like for 3rd floor is buried under the icy water.
Third floor is wild but I think not wilder than my duty days in Laguna. If my memory serves me right, I didn’t have much time to sit every time I’m on duty back in Cailles. However, 3rd floor has this specific toxic level and is brought primarily by demanding patient and doctors. It’s fairly different from Cailles. I haven’t experience the kind of toxin because I haven’t given the chance but I can feel that it is coming soon. For what is worth, I’ am ready and I’m ready to take the challenge.
The best moments in life is doing what scared you the most.
I think one of my existing phobia as of now is answering and calling on telephone. I figured out I’m scared that I might not understand the person on the other line and that person might think I’m stupid. Talk about confidence and all. To think about it, I worked in a call center and English phone tutorial center but I guess I haven’t got over with the phobia. I’m hoping I will this time. God bless me.
Unlike before, I don’t feel nervous nor scared every time I go to duty. In fact, I feel excitement and a sudden rush. I hope this will stay. This is what I call FIRE. I thought I lost it somewhere but now it’s all coming back to me.
I thank God for HIS guidance and love.
