I keep letting people feel I don't miss HD, but deep deep down my subconscious mind I effin' miss them.
There I said it!!! I guess it's not about her or anyone in the 3rd floor but all of the emotions stuck inside my chest last night should be blame with all my denial that I don't miss those freaking HD people plus there's no doubt that my estrogen levels are at peak right now. Urgggghh!
Last night was my first afternoon duty. To be honest I was kind a lost, it wasn't the best duty I ever had. Not to mention I was really bothered by the freaking' antibiotic! I hope I didn't do anything harmful to that patient. Now I realize how can my work be sooO helpful and harmful at the same time. I should be mOre cautious next time.
The people I'm with are nice too but there was one who is pretty tactless. Well, she was endorsed with me by someone but I just ignored what he said.Now, I know what he means when he said that. And it's no use if I'm gonna act like a sensitive wimpy teenager. Anyways, I'm used to teasing anyways. Someone I know from college gives me extra attention which I think might stir up a controversy. Yay! God bless me. I think people there are not that warm like the HD people but to think of it, I'm still a stranger in that area and I still have to prove my worth to gain their trust like what I did at HD.
Yesterday was not the best day of my life. Although I did things on time. I received some assistance which I'm so thankful but I prefer doing things on my own. (Sometimes I wish I'm NOT that proud! Must change attitude immediately!)
I saw almost all of the Jalysis people and I really appreciate their greetings but I guess that made my feelings worst aggravated by the not so tactful people of 3rd floor. TODAY, I wanna give my best! So they won't call on my name during endorsement. I still have a lot of things to learn and my bag is widely open to put them all together.
Prayer: Father God in heaven I wanted to thank you for all the learning opportunities you are give me. May you guide me and be my personal mentor. I lift everything to you, every duty, every complement, every mistake, every learning experience I gain. Make me a good person and make me a good nurse through all of this. In the name of the Jesus, my lord and savior. Amen.
