This is the main reason why I never wanted to surf and browse on Facebook. My insecurities eat me alive making me ask million questions that in the first place every answer is completely compiled in my mind.. This is one of my trashy features that I couldn't get over with. Quite similar to a bitter and unreal friend that keeps stabbing me on my back just in my case slapping me upfront.
I really envy those people who have it all. The face, the lifestyle, the friends and the love.
I simply hate it when I tend to focus with the ones I don't have and not consider those I have. But what do I exactly have?I think it is healthy to remind myself of the things most people don't have that I luckily have.
A very loving, supporting and cool dad. I never realized this until I came to my senses and had my mature thoughts instilled in my mind, I guess that was after college because I was still immature even if I was done doing thesis. I learned that it is hard to give yourself to people unselfishly and for that I admire my dad for doing that without hesitation for US. It is hard and I'm uncertain that I will be able to do that thing for people that I know I hate.
A college degree. I'am lucky to earn my nursing degree despite the fact that I lost my scholarship that first term I entered the university. My family is basically not capable to give me expensive education but I was able to be a license nurse with aid of rich and demanding uncle abroad.
Being practically wise. I'm not bragging about the things that I can do but with my observations, compare to my college friends, I'm more real life intelligent. They might be slightly academically superior to me but when it comes to real life situations, I think I handle it more strategically and wisely. As to my hospital exposure, I can independently decide for myself and I always aim for improvement and learning.
A lean and no diet problem body structure. Most women die just to have a lean body. They resist eating sinful foods that addens weight. As for me, never had a problem with staying slim and all. I might gain weight for a week of heavy eating but I can easily get rid of the lump in just days. I always receive complements because of my leaness.
Writing skills. I remember when my leader in thesis making ask me to create an introduction page of our thesis. I made it but it was awful so we had to ask for help from an expert person but for some reason they thought I made our awesome final intro page. I never thought that they would trust me for doing such task.
Risk taking abilities. I'm always afraid but I never pulled myself away from risks. There is something in me that is excited for exploring new things far from the old ways I have. This is the same thing that brought me to a very life changing situation in my life back in college. Yeah those days sucks the most but pretty surprise that I almost ended up in the dean's list.
I'm Salutatorian. I tend to ignore this achievement in my life because I always thought that I ONLY graduated in a public high school. In the later, I realized that it's the same address that most schools give to the person who garnered the second best score in the whole graduating batch. Guess I'm not appreciative at all before and I think I'm still am until now.
Real Friends. Like I said, am never an appreciative type so I never valued my friends until I was caught up with tight situations that I had no choice but to voice it out with someone. "These people are simply essential to our lives. We cannot live alone." These are basically the same words I uttered when I was relieve by a friend.
Loving Aunts, Uncles and Relatives. I never thought that aside from my family and friends, I can find other people who love me. These are my uncles who helped in paying my bills in college and aunts who give me the things that I need when I' am once far away from my family.
I love this! I'm suddenly diverted from being envious to being thankful and lucky. I love the positivity brought by this post. I definitely not mentioned other things I have so I'll keep this post updated.
