I'm Back

Hello rapsville! With Christmas around the corner, I feel so light and positive these days.

Two days have passed after I took the IELTS exam. I feel like I've taken the test a long long time ago. It's a 4 hr nightmare and all left to do is to hope for the best. I'm not confident whether I'm gonna hit the mark that I wanted but I gave every effort I have so I guess I'm OK with that.

I'm back. It's my first day at work today. I feel good. I realized I miss my work and my colleagues at the unit. There are things that make me happy and those things made it hard for me to go. I feel like I was missed too. I was occasionally pissed off at duty but I chose to smile and think differently. Anyways, it's my day that will be ruined not theirs. I want to develop the habit of laughing over things that give me stress. In that way, I release myself from hurtful feelings that I usually bare inside. 

It's gonna be a long week. I have conditioned myself to be positive. Anyways, life is a matter of perspective.

What is the difference between thinking about failure and success? Well it's quite BIG. I opt for the latter. 

Smile. Tomorrow is another day to live, to worship God and to lift God to the highest through the ways of  my living.

What NOW?

Hi rapsville! I drop by to say hello and update you about what's going on these days.

Well in less than 3 days, I'm going to take the IELTS exam. I've been planning this for a long time. It took me quite a while before I finally pursue it. Nevertheless, it's gonna happen this weekend. 

I kind a regret that I didn't make the decision as soon as possible because things are the same even I paid for some review lessons. It isn't less difficult because I'm used to cramming-- that's how I handle stuff ever since I was in school.

Anyways, I'm having a hard time reviewing right now. I took the mock exam last Monday and as expected I didn't perform that well. It is quite expected from me who didn't even touch or listen to any review material my friend has given me. Plus, I've been out of class since August. Passing is really out of my mind even before the mock exam. My main purpose is just to experience how the test will go. At least I have the idea of what I'm taking. In the end, I got what I want. I pointed out my weaknesses-- all 4 of them. Oh no...

Now, my plan is to have a comprehensive review on all area. I know it's not gonna be easy and I have to push myself hard. I'm not nervous and I'm not confident as well. All I plan to do is to give everything I have and devote my time in practice and answering drills. Fairly in the end, whatever the result is, I can say that I did everything that I can.