It’s been an exciting week for
me. This might be one of those times where I got to do, experience and
learn a lot in a short time.
These days, days pass like hours
and hours pass like minutes. I don’t have a tight grip of time. I don’t get the
chance to update myself of the day and often, I get surprised by how fast days
had gone and its weekend again.
When I’m on duty, time is an
essential and every second counts. I get on duty and the next thing I know its
endorsement time. I’m not really sure if
it’s a good thing but I find it interesting and extraordinaire. It’s like there’s
no time to get bored and lax. Which is exactly opposite of what I felt in
Dialysis unit. I’m not really sure what I like and not but I’m pretty much ok
with where I am now though it’s not a perfect and easy place.
This week I had my first two
absents. The first one was last Tuesday because of severe back pain. It was
honest and I really can’t move well. The second is today. I had a great night
last night with my high school friends; drank too much, talk my heart out and
flirt as much as I can. Haha.
Eventually, I wasn’t able to go to work because I feel terribly bad and tired.
Honestly, behind my valid reasons
(at least for me they are valid). I intended to make absences while I’m still a
volunteer because once I get promoted as a trainee, I plan to bring the best in
me and never absent. Yes, next cut off, on Tuesday, April 11, I’m an official
trainee.
I don’t know if it’s something to
be happy and thankful for. Technically, YES, because that only means I’m
entitle to some of the hospital benefits like allowance and a ton of hospital
toxicity brought by heavy work load and responsibility. I really regret I don’t
get the chance to pour my sarcasm when it comes to this. That freaking cocktail
screwed up my wordplay today!
Anyways, all the stress I felt
this week was melted away by the time I spent with my high school classmates
last night. I got the chance to hang out and de-stress with real people and
people I like. I miss those kind of moments when you get the chance to show the
real you and just pour my heart out without worrying that those people will
sell you out. I was really de-stressed. I’m especially happy that had to spend
time to one of my high school crush, Max. He really made my night right even
though I was kind a disappointed of some things. Nonetheless, it’s worth a day
absent from the hospital, seriously.
In the hospital, I’m happy that I’m
starting to learn humility again and treating mistakes like my own mentor. I
hope I can take this attitude along the way. Ione is starting to open up with
me and she’s really nice, actually to everyone. I’m not certain if she’s true
or she is just making herself likable. Anyways, I don’t want to guess her real
intention.
From now on, I decided not to be conscious
with everyone is thinking either about me or anybody. I choose to focus with my
job and what I’m bound to do. I wish I’ll get over with my phobia with phones
and calling too.
Now I got to frequently remind
myself of my purpose, drive, motives and goals in the floor to get me back on
track every time.
