It’s 4 days before Christmas and I’m here on the couch thinking about the days while I was in Laguna. I usually bump on these memories when I’m bored and this is because the internet connection is down. In other words, my life is completely out of color. Those internet folks really know how to ruin once life.
Basically, I’m at home with no internet and with a bunch of annoying slow pokes. I hate the feeling of mixed boredom and annoyance. I wanted to get away but sadly I got no choice but to stay because I ‘m broke. Sometimes I think that God provide just enough because he knows the things that I can do with the excess (if joined with my rollercoster feelings and ideas). I haven’t figured out yet whether this is a blessing or what, but I’m neutral.
As of this moment, we still got no connection to the web world and it’s almost 72 hours.
Out of boredom I decided to watch the very first movie I downloaded in this laptop-- Letters to God, that’s the title of the movie. I watched the first half of the film when I was in Laguna but I got irritated by one of the characters named Sam. I dislike her manner of talking and gestures that’s why I wasn’t able to get close to end of the film. I don’t usually watch movie in such genre but the IMDB rating made me go with it. If my memory serves me right, it was 8/10.
Out of boredom I saw the whole film in my room. I got emotional when I got to the pass half part. I was touched by the movie’s theme. It was a reminder and I was completely reminded. My relationship with God has been cold as ever. I never talked to him for six months now. Unconsciously, for the past months I lived my life on my own, without His guidance and will. Sure my life has been dirty but the movie has knocked me out real hard. I cried scene after scene. I realize how I’ve been so bad. Compare to my internet connection God’s line has never been down nor cut. It’s just me who forgot to contact him.
It is a timely message. It’s Christmas. This only means that God is actually thinking about me.
