It's Friday and god! I'm really loosing my grip of time. I wake up in the morning, eat, go to work then, watch movies and sleep. Those were my routine every single day ever since I started working. Is this what it means to be an adult?
I never walk in this road before so I'm pretty much unfamiliar with what is this adolescence is all about. I'm a stranger in the island called adulthood and even though I'm 24 already, I'm feel like I gate crashed in this stage and felt like I don't belong.
What is this adolescence all about?
Some people are doing it well and managing the level nicely. At this age, they are well paid, they travel, they already have things they call their own, their parents are really proud of them, they were able to help other people, most important of all, they know what they're doing and where they are heading.
Sometimes I wonder whether they already been on this road where I am. I guess not, cause I think they were never lost. How did they do things professionally? Did they cheat like what I do on games? Did they take a shortcut? Or I guess they received an awesome tip from someone who knows it all, someone who mastered this very complicated puzzle known as life.
I wish I have a mentor who will tell me what to do but think of it I'm not a robot. I got this ability to think and reason. I should know what is right and what should be done. Though at times I loose my common sense because of too much thinking I guess.
I'am smart. My mom, dad and some people outside my clan told me so. I know it myself but the thing is, I sometimes forget that I'm above average and end up acting dumb to avoid heavy expectations and responsibilities. Looking at the bigger picture, I'm a mess. I'm a rat. I'm a loser. I hate that word but I guess I am.
Talk about loserdome, I'am a loser for quite a while but I WON'T let this continue.
I'm SMART. I'm CAPABLE. I know I CAN.
Too much of this lonesome loser days, this is enough. Gotta show the real me. Goodbye fears!
FOCUS. BE SMART. BE GREAT!
TO GOD BE THE GLORY!
