With my 24 years of existence, I can safely conclude that I'm not a very social person. Probably, if I would rate myself, I would be below average when it comes to that aspect. I guess it is rooted from my childhood or I just want to be alone for most times.
Believe it or not, I never had intimate relationship with someone. In short, I never had a boyfriend.That doesn't mean that no one had ever expressed interest in me. I turned down some people FYI. I can't say exactly why but I got a lot reasons why but I can deny that I'm scared.
Although I have faith with desensitization, I still can't figure out why I feel distant with my co-workers and I why I don't feel attachment to most of them. Is this normal? Is it because of I'm originally an introvert?
On one hand, I've overcome extreme awkwardness when dealing with people before. But I've gone through the same awful before. I don't know what happen but it just happen and everything feel into place. All of a sudden I became one of them and became family.
I wish it will be all like that after a while.
