I'm back home. Back to my old nasty habits.
Two months ago I was a nurse who knows where she is going but now, I'm lost (again). Staying at home makes my life drastically stagnant. Like I wanted to fly but something pulls me back. I really don't want this kind of feeling. I always thought of my fate as a successful nurse but the thought stays as the same intangible thing I built in my mind 3 years ago. I feel being left out. I don't want to open my facebook account cause it feels miserable when I see those people I know having the time of their lives. Splurging on things they have right now because of their hard work and luck. I wanted to be like them.Some of them stands out even outside the field we specialized with. I failed to do the same because NURSING is only the career that is on my mind.
I'm in freelancing nowadays. I've been doing this for 2 years I think and during those times, I never think of doing the best so I can to excel and be one of the best in freelancing. I just wanted to have an extra income while I'm working out things with the career I've chosen. But I guess it's time for me to do my best in everything I do so I can practice competence in everything I do. At least, I'll be able to get rid of the awful feeling of being left out, for now.
