One thing I fear about relationship is being hurt and causing pain to someone who matters. I guess that’s one of the risks when you open your heart to people. Too bad I haven’t master the skills on dealing about these stuffs. I must admit, I’m a toddler when it comes to this.
From I where I work, I’m very fortunate to meet new folks who I share the same interest with. They are different people with distinct attitude, personality, views, thoughts and opinions. Fortunately, one thing keeps us together and that is our profession—NURSING. Like anything else, it was a rough road at first but we manage to get through it and now we are understood each other better.
By this time, we are really close, I guess more than colleagues should be. Too bad this relationship should be tested and there we’ll find if this is for real. Unfortunately, I initiated the test, thanks to my blabber mouth.
So it goes like this, “SHE” said I said something to “HIM” that “HE” thought is suppose to be a secret between the two of them. “HE”’s gone mad when “HE” knew I know the secret and “HE” called “HER” and said rude things to “HER”. “HE” even asked our superior to rotate “HER” and probably me too to another unit.
There was a time when I noticed that everyone is like treating me like I’m invisible. I thought there’s something wrong about me and I feel like I’m completely out of place. Never thought there’s something going on behind my back and I almost loose a good friend.
I think one of the best thing that happened to me this year is making an eccentric, fun and great friend. She confessed to me everything and I feel terrible that I had caused her one good potential friend. I never felt this way before. I was suppose to be insensitive to others’ situation even if I have an indirect fault but this time it’s different.
I guess one thing is true, I have opened up to this girl and I like her that I feel pain when she’s going through it.
