I swore myself (like few days back) that I will stop hurting myself. Apparently, something is bothering me right now and I’m scared that I may end up bleeding (again!!!???).
I really don’t want to accept it right now but I realize, “the only way to prevent any complication is to diagnose the illness and know where it’s coming from.”
It’s not them, it’s not her but it’s ME.
I can’t hate her cause she’s pretty. I can’t blame them either cause they are just ordinary people who see much of the outer shell of a person. I guess this is the reason why I hate guys. SHALLOW.
Diagnosis: Hate r/t insecurities and exaggerated consciousness of what others have over what I have.
What should I do? Even beautiful people have insecurities so how can I isolate myself?
One month had past and the long conservative-black-hair fever is getting a phenomenon even leaping to patients. I feel terribly awkward when people in unit shows their fondness to her in front me. I don’t know what to do and say. I really thought, I already improved my social skills through the years but I guess I did for only a few percentage.
For the record, all the boys in the HD unit are all crazy about her except from our head which gender is unsure. Now, I realize the girls are NOT(?) or is it just me.
