I often blame my hormones of the feelings and thoughts that I have, and I can’t figure out whether these things are real or not. It’s like that I couldn’t distinguish right from wrong. I dislike what I’m going through, probably because I always wanted to make the right plan and right choices. In short, I always wanted to be right in any instances. The problem is I lack consistency. Finally, I already pin pointed my weakness. Well, there’s a lot but I guess this is one is the major.
At work, I can be competent and incompetent at times. My friend always says that I’m one of the best but at the back of my mind “she got a point but not all the time.” For example on IV insertion, I make it a point to insert an IV in one shot. I wanted it to be my habit, but unfortunately, my imperfections ruin my habit and in the end..fail.
I deal with a couple of documents daily, and I notice people’s penmanship. Most of the old ones are consistent— and that I, consistently good and consistently bad. I wonder why some of us can’t stick with our preferred penmanship style. Ehem, as for me, my penmanship changes in times of stress and depending on my mood. Most of the times, I’m being praised because of the penmanship and I like that. I guess that’s one of my motivations that’s why I seldom make my penmanship gross.
I like jap, and I don’t know whether he likes me or not. I just want it to get out of my chest. He have been assisting me twice and the outcome wasn’t that bad. I don’t know why I’m so attracted with play boys but I guess I’m not the only one. We all have this urge to lure a confused guy.
It’s funny how I change topic in an instant, I guess that’s one good example of my lack of consistency.
