I hate him so much. I really hate feeling this way. I’m the kind of person who easily forgets and move on. Absence would definitely make it easier but my thoughts of him torment me a lot. He’s not my type physically, but urgggghhhh! I hate him for making me feel this way. I regret the day that we’ve become close, I mean…really? Why did I let him get near me? He’s a flirt, yes. I guess this is all his fault.
It’s been a while that we become distant to each other because of duty schedules. I saw him yesterday and wala, all the pain was resurrected. I remember, diving in the pool because of too much jealousy. Now I know how it feels and it’s awful. Ever thought that you’d just like to be eaten by something big and just disappear?
I’m a strong woman and I don’t want to be beaten. Loosing is the most terrible thing that can happen to me. And I guess this time I lost and the pain get through my armor into my heart.
