I just watch a weird film titled "Crush and Blush". It was an unusual film but I was pulled in because of the story. A single loser teacher who is stalking her ex-teacher/married man. Not that I'm a loser but I find a piece of myself in the story. One, I'm single-no-boyfriend-since-birth girl. Second, I easily give meanings to what guys are expressing to me, which sucks. However, I realize that I was way better than the girl in the film.
I'm an empowered women, with high standards about guys. I'm smart and I'm looking for someone who will outsmart me. Mind you, not because I'm single means no one have attempted to court me. There are guys who express interest but they don't mean even a little because they didn't pass my qualifications. Well, I think I'm sounding too defensive, that's enough..
The reason I'm here is to share what I learn from the film and that is, "Don't dwell on your fantasies". Falling for the world you created is like giving up your sanity for nothing. Don't dwell in the past, see what the future holds. Don't get fixated with the good things that happened, look forward for the great things ahead. Yes, I'm pessimistic but seeing reality simply means that my sanity in pretty much intact and I'm ready to whatever life upholds.
